california girls

as i was going through my mass amounts of pictures i found these few gems :)
i love all my friends from the past they are so great....though i dont know why i have a picture of michael.....oh well
this is why i love pictures they remind me of things
i am so forgetful

40 day dream

my lack of posting really is due to my lack of pictures :/ 

my camera needs to be fixed...now

well that probably wont happen for a while

so don't expect too much out of me

but i have mostly spend the past few days

traveling, hanging out with haden, and in school

gee i wish my world was more exciting

oh well i have a puppy named bella

a boyfriend named haden, that i love

and a great friend named lex

i'm content

it will get better. any who i found a picture that reminded me of all of those people

i know strange right?

well it reminds me of lex because it is our dream to own a polaroid camera

oh what i would do for one

and it reminds me of haden because i love pictures with him

i think we are rather adorable

and it reminds me of bella because i have alot of pictures of her hanging on a string like this on my fridge :)

Daylight.

while sitting at starbucks i read the back of my cup

ha its funny to think that starbucks has become 

the best place to recieve insight

wait not even starbucks just their cups

oh well i love the place regardless

it makes me rather happy

not going to lie

maybe thats why i go there so much

this along with the quote i posted earlier are my new modos

i need to be a happier person

oh and p.s i totally discovered groove shark yesterday

i mean why does pandora even exist?

groove shark is a million times better 

although pandora has a better name 

regardless groove shark rocks

oh heard someone use the term irregarless today

i was like waaaaaaaatttttt

retard

some people need hobbies

c'est la vie i guess

little lion man

i saw this quote and thought hey thats not too shabby
so i wrote it down
but due to my boredom i wrote it with an excess amount of effort
hmm oh well i thought it applied

Notes...

well when i get bored i write and draw random things

i know i need a hobby

oh well 

i took haden's not and made it into a dream catcher just out of boredom

so i could play with it

ha i wonder if he ever gets sick of my random notes?

work day 2

i showed up to work today 

for the second time in a row

i am proud of myself :)

event hough i did all my work yesterday

now i'm just sitting at my desk with a pile of papers 

looking like i'm doing work :)

i thought i was sneaky

now all i need is my ipod 

then this would be bliss

sparks fly

if you havent realized by now the majority of my blog titles are the songs that i believe go along with the posts. haha i thought i was creative. well any who.

my weekend was perfect thanks to lex, haden, and a select few others

i spend friday with haden thanks to the lovely rain canceling the game

remind me to write a thank you letter to zeus later.

then saturday we had preference

and sunday i was with haden again

while still accomplishing some other tasks

i am however not excited for this week

because monday and tuesday haden has games 

wednesday i have tons of test to take at the college

thursday may be a good day

friday will be bad as well as saturday 

i will be bored :/

sunday as usual is a day that saves my bad week

we are going up to a pond and taking pictures with lex

i am rather excited

idk why

i think its just because i like being with him

my mother is certain that relationships are over rated and that 

no matter what they'll never last 

oh well even if this doesn't last forever i will enjoy the remainder of this relationship

i truly think i am the luckiest girl ever

one of the funniest days ever

thanks to my date haden :)

ha once again we got told we looked alike

i felt weird because thats like the 399th person

but then i also got told we made a cute couple 

i agree with that one 100% 

but still we dont look alike

thats creepy

mmmmmmm :)

my boredom results with me on youtube :)
and indie music :)

my productivity level goes down when i'm at work.

hence how i ended up on my blog

my job is BORING

i sit here

answer a phone when it rings

listen to weird gossip

get hungry 

eat chocolate

file some papers

then end up on facebook

hmmmmm

i feel as if everything in life should be free

i would be about 10 times happier

or i wish my work was like the office

one of the two is all i ask

kkthnx

stolen :)

i've decided i am content.

well.... better then content

we'll say perfect because

i love my life as of right now

and all thanks to one person

Haden

he truly is the greatest person ever 

so i decided to take him to preference 

we didn't really stay with the group

but i didn't care

because i just like being with him

he's great

:)

i started out my day very frustrated

but as usual he made me happy

oh his life is tough

dealing with me and my craziness all day

but he is a champ about it all

and day in day out he makes me smile

Hands Down

as of late i have had a few adventures with lex and kryston

while sunshine is busy i fill my time with these two classy people.

well i felt pretty, which doesnt happen that often so i took a picture :)

we started our day at mc donalds to get some smoothies

hmm they are rather delicious.

we all look insane we decided

we were listening to the song friday

so obviously we were in a lovely mood

at 25 main.

i will own this place one day

awww yeah

kryston wanted my skinny jeans so she tackled me

physically toke them from me

and then i proceeded to chase her around her house

then i talked to her kindly until she returned them

it was awkward

mmmmmpotassium

Sigh No More

    I would rather not think of the end of something this good but its bound to happen, so i figure might as well think of how my life will be when this ends.
    I have 5 steps. the first is that this wont end well it will end with a simple break up but a fight with mean words via text.
    Second step is i will sit around my house for 2 days being very upset. and i will think my life is the worst thing ever. and think of all the good things we had
    The third step is every single thing will make me think of you and i will be abnormally sad at random points throughout the day for roughly a month or so.
    The fourth step is that i will bottle it up and pretend that it doesn't but me at all. but in due time i'll just go off and tell someone everything I'm thinking.
    The fifth and final step is hopefully mending the friendship that we used to have.

    i really would rather none of this happen any time soon but i just have a feeling this is exactly what will happen because i know my self and i know you.

today was a good day

     Today i was woken up at six to deal with drama with my brother, he was in California for a rehab program but he decided to leave. My uncle Jay put him on a bus so i had to go pick him up. i was told that he would be dropped off at the bus stop at roughly 9:00 so i got there about 8:30 and waited.... then waited some more, 9:15 rolled around. so i went to get some tea. 11:30 decided to show up and after 2 hours he finally pulls in and then i took him to get some food at mcdonalds, talked to him about the past few weeks and then handed him all the money in my wallet and he hugged me and walked away. i'll probably see him soon. wether it be in a jail or not.
    Now onto the good part of the day. i decided since i was in town i would go shopping to make me feel better so i went to target to get some new clothes and waited for lex the we went to old navy in search of t-shirts so she could make me a sick toms logo she designed in the end neither of us got a t-shirt but we both spent like 30 dollars on some random t-shirts we found in the little boys section. ha its batman and the boston red sock. we are cool.
     Then i ventured over to Haden's house where i attempted to complete my planner. while he made random cat pictures. in the end he posted offensive pictures on my facebook wall and he completed my planner. not sure what all happened the rest of the day but i do know that i liked it, and i tried an abnormally delicious drink, and got elbowed in the nose. i love random days just sitting there with him. its fun.

sun of a b

we were perfect. idk what happened but its my fault
i see this slowly dwindling and it kills me
because i know its because of me
and it scares me because i like you
so i freak out more
and take my anger out on you
i'm sorry
i really am
because frankly you are the greatest
and i like you a lot
i want to be with you
i am sorry for everything
i also wish i could say this to you
once again i'm afraid
i'm insecure
and scared.....
one day

From seth:

girl i cant explain what I'm feeling here
so amazing hypnotized by your stunning beauty
you eyes your lips your hair
everything about you girl
puts me in a  trance of no return
i just got the thoughts racing through my head
got a bicker on my face
and a lie down to bed
my smile turns to frown when i realize
i need you more than now
but your so far away
1000 miles away from home
I'm coming back home
just don't forget
all the memories that we share
I'm coming back home and I'm coming back for you
Slackwater social

from seth:

this room is cold
i feel your body next to mine
by my side
my thoughts are cold
cannot get you off my mind
drama queen
actions are a vicious fiend
playing on is your best game
hard on mens hearts
what a shame
you moods were ice
cut me inside like knives
say it was impulse
but i know that is false
know you have a lost
so naive i was walking blind
i had high hopes
for something unachievable
looking back now i can see you and i weren't meant to be
you dove out
fast and a bitch mood
what's this all about
are you having second doubts
i was so naive i was walking blind
 i had high hopes for something unachievable
looking back now i can see you and i weren't meant to be
walking blind by your side
i can see now
now i will look up not down
because i am feeling better now
but i understand you have been hurt by the man
and you've been played on just like you've been doing to me
i will  not say i knew this before
but i know this now
i was naive i was walking blind i had high hopes
for some one who was hurt
looking back now i can see you just need more time

dear high school, i hate you.

so dropped another class today.... well more like they asked me to leave because i was too far ahead of the other students and i wouldn't have enough classes to take next year. psh well fine i don't need music appreciation anyway.
i do like all the free time i don't have to wake up early
i have really long lunches
but its just a really awkward time of the day because i sleep in go to second then go home for lunch and third then go back for fourth its weird.

i really don't know why but this is all i want
i've had all the other girl stereo types
a kiss in the rain
random 3 am visits
falling asleep in someone's arms
and being picked up
but this is the one thing i have yet to receive
and its the only thing i really want
don't get me wrong love all those other things
getting a dozen roses with a note just seems cute
i'm not asking for a guy to show up
give me a speech
i just want to wake up walk outside and find them
on my door step
oh well one day its bound to happen.
hopefully.

school days

i asked alicia what i resembled the most

and without thinking she immedietly said

lion.

hells yes

the dollar store has nerds 

oh what a happy day 

too bad the man featured below ate them all...

oh by the way thats nate

i would probably live off this stuff if i could its rather delicious

oh nate always trying to seduce people

seth dared levi to snort them

yeah it happened

thats got to be bad for him

oh well

we can only hope

dear inventor of mini laptops, 

i hate you

these are ridiculous

they make me procrastinate school work.

you're and idiot

love taylor

this is what it looks like when you walk into class early

with all the other cool people

she's upset because her mack buddy didnt show up

this morning

alison drawing me a picture of a beautiful unicorn

awwwww yeah

hmmm...

Looking: for my ipod i have lost it once again. oh what a shame
Craving: orange cupcakes from 25 main. i love that place
Wondering: how many days of left in this dreadful school year
Enjoying: the lack of parental supervision in my house at the moment
Hurting: from lex running me over with haden's car
Missing: my brother jb
Anticipating: the picnic on saturday
Listening: to the beatles. here comes the sun
Finishing: online schooling. unit 2
Wishing: that i could see haden more
Loving: today :)

bucket list

Everyone's been making bucket lists lately.
I have one.
But I don't want to join the trend entirely.
So.
I made a different list.
A high school bucket list.
Of things I want to accomplish before I GRADUATE.
Or get married.
Yuck.
No.
We'll say graduate.
Anyways,
Here we go


#1. Road Trip to California.
kryston. haden. lex. me.
This is for you.
We will go to a beach house in California.
We will party all weekend long.
We will tan.
And we will live life to the fullest.
Coins for Cali! :]
#2. Camp-Out.
I want to camp out before a school week.
Really.
Badly.
In a tent.
Overnight.
In front of the stephen wade dealership.
In the cold.
To watch our soon to be above average rugby team play.
Everyone else did it this year.
And I think it would be so fun.
#3. Go to an Away Game. Outside of Utah.
Whatever sport (preferably rugby or baseball)
I want to go and watch them play.
Especially now that we're amazing at rugby
Don't ask why this is one of them.
It just is.
#4. Live Alone.
This is HOPEFULLY coming true Winter 2012 .
That is for another blog post.
Later.
#5. trip to colorado.
Again, this is hopefully coming this summer.
I want to go to colorado  SO badly.
Really.
Really.
Badly.
#6. Become a True warrior.
That's easier said than done.
Kiss at the pitching mound out in the baseball field at midnight. (Is this true? I just heard someone talking about it....sounds cool.)
First, find boy. 
Second, accomplish kiss.
#7. find tunnels in the city.
Need I say more?
#8. Get on the roof of the lab and eat del taco.
And look at st. george..
cool huh? :]
I thought so too.
#9. Get a 4.0 one semester.
Ambitious, I know.
Especially for me.
But.
I know it won't happen this semester (stupid algebra 2).
So you can only hope for later on in life.
#10. have one full day with no curfew or phone calls..
this is all i ask truly
i hate curfew
Maybe the list it will grow more as high school goes on....
But those are my core 10.

bieber fever

i understand that this suden bieber love may be quite confusing. but just let me explain.

so. my darling friend chandlee came for a visit this weekend who is also a blieber. along with his sisters. and they sort of converted me. still there are only two songs that i can bare to listen too. i just think he seems like a really really cute kid, and that he should marry my friend's little sister already. yea yea? yea!