sun of a b

we were perfect. idk what happened but its my fault
i see this slowly dwindling and it kills me
because i know its because of me
and it scares me because i like you
so i freak out more
and take my anger out on you
i'm sorry
i really am
because frankly you are the greatest
and i like you a lot
i want to be with you
i am sorry for everything
i also wish i could say this to you
once again i'm afraid
i'm insecure
and scared.....
one day

From seth:

girl i cant explain what I'm feeling here
so amazing hypnotized by your stunning beauty
you eyes your lips your hair
everything about you girl
puts me in a  trance of no return
i just got the thoughts racing through my head
got a bicker on my face
and a lie down to bed
my smile turns to frown when i realize
i need you more than now
but your so far away
1000 miles away from home
I'm coming back home
just don't forget
all the memories that we share
I'm coming back home and I'm coming back for you
Slackwater social

from seth:

this room is cold
i feel your body next to mine
by my side
my thoughts are cold
cannot get you off my mind
drama queen
actions are a vicious fiend
playing on is your best game
hard on mens hearts
what a shame
you moods were ice
cut me inside like knives
say it was impulse
but i know that is false
know you have a lost
so naive i was walking blind
i had high hopes
for something unachievable
looking back now i can see you and i weren't meant to be
you dove out
fast and a bitch mood
what's this all about
are you having second doubts
i was so naive i was walking blind
 i had high hopes for something unachievable
looking back now i can see you and i weren't meant to be
walking blind by your side
i can see now
now i will look up not down
because i am feeling better now
but i understand you have been hurt by the man
and you've been played on just like you've been doing to me
i will  not say i knew this before
but i know this now
i was naive i was walking blind i had high hopes
for some one who was hurt
looking back now i can see you just need more time

dear high school, i hate you.

so dropped another class today.... well more like they asked me to leave because i was too far ahead of the other students and i wouldn't have enough classes to take next year. psh well fine i don't need music appreciation anyway.
i do like all the free time i don't have to wake up early
i have really long lunches
but its just a really awkward time of the day because i sleep in go to second then go home for lunch and third then go back for fourth its weird.

i really don't know why but this is all i want
i've had all the other girl stereo types
a kiss in the rain
random 3 am visits
falling asleep in someone's arms
and being picked up
but this is the one thing i have yet to receive
and its the only thing i really want
don't get me wrong love all those other things
getting a dozen roses with a note just seems cute
i'm not asking for a guy to show up
give me a speech
i just want to wake up walk outside and find them
on my door step
oh well one day its bound to happen.
hopefully.

school days

i asked alicia what i resembled the most

and without thinking she immedietly said

lion.

hells yes

the dollar store has nerds 

oh what a happy day 

too bad the man featured below ate them all...

oh by the way thats nate

i would probably live off this stuff if i could its rather delicious

oh nate always trying to seduce people

seth dared levi to snort them

yeah it happened

thats got to be bad for him

oh well

we can only hope

dear inventor of mini laptops, 

i hate you

these are ridiculous

they make me procrastinate school work.

you're and idiot

love taylor

this is what it looks like when you walk into class early

with all the other cool people

she's upset because her mack buddy didnt show up

this morning

alison drawing me a picture of a beautiful unicorn

awwwww yeah

hmmm...

Looking: for my ipod i have lost it once again. oh what a shame
Craving: orange cupcakes from 25 main. i love that place
Wondering: how many days of left in this dreadful school year
Enjoying: the lack of parental supervision in my house at the moment
Hurting: from lex running me over with haden's car
Missing: my brother jb
Anticipating: the picnic on saturday
Listening: to the beatles. here comes the sun
Finishing: online schooling. unit 2
Wishing: that i could see haden more
Loving: today :)

bucket list

Everyone's been making bucket lists lately.
I have one.
But I don't want to join the trend entirely.
So.
I made a different list.
A high school bucket list.
Of things I want to accomplish before I GRADUATE.
Or get married.
Yuck.
No.
We'll say graduate.
Anyways,
Here we go


#1. Road Trip to California.
kryston. haden. lex. me.
This is for you.
We will go to a beach house in California.
We will party all weekend long.
We will tan.
And we will live life to the fullest.
Coins for Cali! :]
#2. Camp-Out.
I want to camp out before a school week.
Really.
Badly.
In a tent.
Overnight.
In front of the stephen wade dealership.
In the cold.
To watch our soon to be above average rugby team play.
Everyone else did it this year.
And I think it would be so fun.
#3. Go to an Away Game. Outside of Utah.
Whatever sport (preferably rugby or baseball)
I want to go and watch them play.
Especially now that we're amazing at rugby
Don't ask why this is one of them.
It just is.
#4. Live Alone.
This is HOPEFULLY coming true Winter 2012 .
That is for another blog post.
Later.
#5. trip to colorado.
Again, this is hopefully coming this summer.
I want to go to colorado  SO badly.
Really.
Really.
Badly.
#6. Become a True warrior.
That's easier said than done.
Kiss at the pitching mound out in the baseball field at midnight. (Is this true? I just heard someone talking about it....sounds cool.)
First, find boy. 
Second, accomplish kiss.
#7. find tunnels in the city.
Need I say more?
#8. Get on the roof of the lab and eat del taco.
And look at st. george..
cool huh? :]
I thought so too.
#9. Get a 4.0 one semester.
Ambitious, I know.
Especially for me.
But.
I know it won't happen this semester (stupid algebra 2).
So you can only hope for later on in life.
#10. have one full day with no curfew or phone calls..
this is all i ask truly
i hate curfew
Maybe the list it will grow more as high school goes on....
But those are my core 10.

bieber fever

i understand that this suden bieber love may be quite confusing. but just let me explain.

so. my darling friend chandlee came for a visit this weekend who is also a blieber. along with his sisters. and they sort of converted me. still there are only two songs that i can bare to listen too. i just think he seems like a really really cute kid, and that he should marry my friend's little sister already. yea yea? yea!

partial spring break pictures

happy birthday!

me and kryston made over 120 cupcakes for my fathers birthday

 purple and orange 

i got one of his favorite colors right

we made chocolate with a vanilla cake

vanilla with a sugar frosting

chocolate peanut butter with peanut butter frosting 

and pumpkin spice with cream cheese frosting

oh and some girl scout cookies

spring!

its finally here!!

look at that blue sky!

oh spring makes me so happy, this calls for some hard core tanning today

ohhhhh yeaaaaahhhhh

and in honor of this day full of blue skies

and high temperatures 

i decided to wear shoes

asking jake to pref!

 me and kryston set out on an adventure to ask jake to preference
so we went to the dollar store bought one very very small shirt
and one very very large shirt and then proceeded to go to krystons house
where we wrote on these shirts then went to jakes house to ask him
but he was not home :/ so we waited then we went back made him come outside
blasted here comes the sun.
i thought it was rather clever.

:)

:)

you try way to hard

you stutter

you have random road rage

you have a crazy ex

you have awkward stare downs with people

but i wouldn't trade you for anything or anyone

you are the most amazing person i know 

i am insanely grateful to have you

you are a sweetheart

you're are cute

you have insanely pretty eyes

you have a twisted sense of humor

you like the same weird things i do

you create awesome lists

you recommend strange movies

you give amazing hugs

and most importantly you tolerate me 

:) 

i appreciate everything about you 

just remember that :)

hey jude, don't make it bad

this would be one of the hight points of the day

after the game we went to kryston's house

this would be me and kryston before the game

at my house

oh this would just be the love of my life

kanon :)

i will marry him some day because he's such a baller

what is up :)

obviously there weren't that many male contenders at this game 

or these picture probable wouldn't have happened

he repeatedly stole my hat 

:(

oh you know 

just me and kanon

i'd say we are rather adorable :)

kryston makayla rowley

i love her so much

this is when our baseball escapade came to an end